Everyone run for cover, the Pearl Monster was unleashed today. Poor Pearl was grumpy and weepy, maybe some new chompers are trying to bust through. Who knew that a BPA-free plastic spoon could be a potential lethal weapon when in the hands of a 14 month old? Not me, that's for sure! The scooping untensil was flying, hitting various members of the family in the head, temper tantrums were had, just all around gloominess for most of the day.
Our little beast is asleep in her crib at the moment, we'll see how long it lasts. There are short bursts of protest that emit from her mouth, possibly when she wakes planning her next method of madness while dreaming. Boob was of little comfort, the poor overworked girls even withstood some torture.
As a result of it all I got frustrated, irritated and annoyed. The Mommy monster crawled out and reared it's ugly head! Shooting daggers out of your eyes at your offspring feels wrong, but they flew none the less. I had visions of Pearl strapped to a huge spinning disc, and I the blindfolded thrower of sharp objects.
Tears flowed from my eyes, my stomach felt sick, how could I even let such thoughts go through my head? Then Clay reminded me that all parents have bad days, all kids have bad days. The fact that I got mad and irritated doesn't make me a bad mother, it makes me a real mother. It's just sad that what makes me human can also make me feel like such a monster.
but turn your back and she'll pounce!
2 comments:
It always used to amaze me when my darling little baby boy turned into the monster from the black lagoon...there was always a reason, but it didn't help much.. Sometimes a snuggle helped, but the only thing that was a for sure was blessed bed time...and a sense of humor..just because we're perfect mothers, doesn't mean we have perfect babies (lol)
xoxoxox
Some things even babies just have to work through on their own. Hard to know what our job is then, harder to realize we can't fix everything or keep them from hurting, and that the best we can do is just to keep the boundaries around them so they don't really hurt themselves and keep the love flowing.
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